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alex rus@
alex rus@
alex rus@
alex rus@
2:36 PM;
alrite, finally here to update, if nt ppl start @$#@&^#^^#@% me again! LOL!
hmmm, went to sentosa wif ww jiawen n clar on sat. actually the gals wanted to take cable car, but the guys were reluctant so in the end no more! lol... go the same for songs of the sea! ooops :X was totally baked under the sun lah! gdness! lol... den went to eat at a hk restaurant. had cheese steak bake rice n hot lemon honey drink, the steak taste pretty fake though, lol.. den wanted to leave asap cos feeling pretty sick since friday den nx day still gt smrt challenge, in the end all left, its damn cold everywhere i go lah, n i was wearing sleeveless somemore... tortured all the way home. bathed n popped 2 panadol hoping to tt they wld heal me for tmr before slp.
sunday, woke up pretty sick still, ate abit of breakfast n popped another 2 panadol, my nose is so heavily blocked, n wats worst, its raining, so ask mum fetch me to yck mrt den went to meet them a orchard. when the race started, well done, its raining pretty heavily, n wow! im sick n still ran in the rain, lol.. so sianzz.. first stop had a big mistake so wasted quite alot of time, n theres one f up grp who hav so little sportsmanship, full of crap, tried to block my team away n cover clues n ans, but in the end, we still win them, getting position 24th! well done UNCLE MUTTON!!!(my grp name =]) den went to cine to eat sushi buffet, everyone was so tired lah, eat n half a slp, finally finished n get to go home to slp, panadol isnt v effectively actually, n thus im sick til today! but finally betta le lah.. yupzz..
yesterday, went to funan to repair my spoilt portable hardisk, n lucky me, jia wen accompanied me! since she so free, nvm lah huh.. lol.. den they exchanged a new one for me, hehehehehe.. walked to bugis n along the way, oman, i love those streets, get to see alot of MERCS, LEXUS, BMW, JUGUAR! oman, really a street full of luxury cars lah! n amazingly, tt stupid jw happen to knw pretty lot bout cars, dunno since when sia, lol.. den took train to bugis to change some stuff, den went to get some pies at cottage pies den go pasir ris park eat, some stupid cat is pretty irritating there, tried to seduce me den den sat on the stool nx to mine, den on the table den came so near to our food! n jw freaked out!! AWAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! so we shifted... den play at the playgrd, hmmm, really so long nv play at playgrd le, feel pretty young though gt a no of kids much younger lah, saw alot of sp frens! lol... den after tt went home le.
ppl do change, some for the betta, some for the worst, but some, change for neither the betta nor worst, juz changed... like me...
realised i aint superman, ive changed, tis time for the better, i dun tend to tink too much, broad over stuff too long n get affected too much, cos it wont change the ending anyway.
will u n i collide?
wait...
9:57 PM;
so long din update le, nt gonna update nw, damn freakin tired, burnt, sick..... n the list goes on... shall go n slp, will update soon!
stop decieving yrself,
wait...
10:57 PM;
apple is an apple, orange is a orange. an apple can nv change into orange. even if the apple is willing to do so, after sometime, the apple, trying to be an orange, finds out it's still red n not orange, n it all hits back to square 1. so dun bother trying to change apple, juz let apple be an apple, bt apple can try to blend wif orange, tts y theres apple orange juice.... wats the possibility of a peeled orange taking an apple as the orange they hoped for? may sound crap but its okay...
to some, theres nv such tings as trying too hard or trying too long, no matter how hard or long u try, it's still considered nt hard n long enough. to others, trying too hard or too long will cause it to work backwards. to wat extent are both statements true? a very sujective question or opinion cos it depends on the indivduals themselves. if u happen to read tis entry, try asking yrself, which side are u standing on den... i see quite a no of ppl trying v hard n long, but tings dun wrk out as desired, so slowly, letting go abit n let nature take its course, but is it really tt way? or tings juz went stagnent again... use to try v hard, but nw, no drive, maybe more protective of individual self... i see smthing happening in a mth time, hav been quite accurate on such predictions i shld say so far, ren dou shi fan jian de, standing at the entrance of a lion's den, u forsee danger but u juz tend to step in, sometimes unknowingly, but mostly willingly. ironic n weird how ppl react to such stuffs rite? many wld find thousand and one reasons or frens ard them to convience themselves bout some decision or mindset, but in they heart, they already knw wat they really wan and carries a hope tt it wld cum true... so wats the reason they carry certain words or sentences ard their lips? trying to show ppl the strong side of them? many phrases hav becum uncertain and varies wif diff circumstances n situations. 'smthing tings dun cum in a first cum first serve basis', dun tink tis statement is tt true after all... many contiune to carry hope even though they see an end, wld tt be considered as false hope? many wld try their v best to find hope even in the slightest actions or words tt are used, but little did they knw those were juz neutral and are used generally for almost everyone. knwing tis fact might hav dashed all the hopes u were carrying in the heart... tts the reason y most ppl tend to stand on the neg side so as to prevent themselves from feeling disappointed after knwing truths tt arent wat they wld like to knw. its not possible to change the impression of the world regarding u, but u can change the impression of yourself of ppl u feel tt matters to u... tts a true statement, but everything happens for a reason, how ppl feel bout u depends on the way u potrait yrself n the msg u bring across to others, n impressions are usually formed by word of mouth, so everything does matters, but its too exhausting to change everything,u may not even succeed... dilemmia in all decisions tt shld be made rite? juz 1 mth, but wif plus n minus, we shall see, i'll wait though, it seems like a stupid idea but tis is the road ive chosen again n im prepared for the worst.... time wld tell =]
actually wanted to dedicate afew songs to diff ppl, but juz cant find suitable ones. so...
to u:
You'll Be Safe Here - Rivermaya
Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine
And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be
Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here
Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong
And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here
its a freakin long post, tink those who read til there shld be quite pro lah.. lol... tts all!
10:21 AM;