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back to update le!!!exams cuming le! so to all. pls study hard including me!!! WAHAHAHA!!! nthing to much to update.. yesterday had abit of captain ball training den went to eat at vivocity... still happie though only half the team turned up... can fill the bond start to be there le, den went to chill at admirity wif wayne den took train home n slp. a very gd talking n catch up, allow you to rest your head when u gt a listening ear nx to u.... tired nia...
my dad gave me a montblanc pen!!! WOO HOOO!! damn nice but bu she de use sia, so think only put on my table bah.. lol... gt 2 creative in ear earpiece, 1 for my sis bday n one for myself... quality is really much betta than my current one.. lol... i feel very broke suddenly bt still managable, after exams, dun tink gt time to wrk part time too, gonna put alot of effort into my fyp cos it has ended for preparation for upcoming exams, jia you bah!!
in life, shit always happens, but it would be meaningful if u can find the essence as precious as gold or diamond in it... dun turn numb, cos u might be insensitive as a result and not anyone enter your life even if they are sincere,wayne told me this, find it v true =]
every obstacle i meet, i learn, thank god i do... leading a happie life now, thanks to ppl ard me =]
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died
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5:50 PM;
i have to block out thoughts of you so i don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
there's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
an ounce of peace is all i want for you. will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
and will you never try to reach me?
it is i that wanted space
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
i’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again
in a sick way i want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while i was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
so i’ll drive so fucking far away that i never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you
hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made
and like a baby boy i never was a man
until i saw your blue eyes crying and i held your face in my hand
and then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”
just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
and then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you
hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
deleted tt previous post, tink it doesn matter anymore? i can forgive but nt forget[quoted from jiawen]... to u, im srry....
10:09 AM;
back to update again.. lets start from fri, cos tts wat i cld actually remember.. fri had last lab for microbio den went for fyp. den finally ended before meeting alvin for running n some physical training. den met aud n wayne before heading to queensway to do the jersey, in the end din do cos is 35 bucks, to ex liao, so wait til nx month for the 29 bucks one. hope to get it done fast. finally go for dinner at alexander village. though the food really freakin deprove but nvm lah, the company matters the most, sian, supppose to be a budget meal but in the end 10 bucks each. sobz... den freakin lame lah, everyone was tired but we juz sat at the bus stop n chat abit while waiting for many bus to go by.. hahaha. damn tired lah. reach home i bathe den KO liao.
nx day had to wake up early for ubin trip, suppose to meet at 9 at tanah merah, but the weather so nice n due to heavy rain, i decided to msg everyone change meeting time to 10 cos i cant get out of the house.. TEE HEEE HEEE. everyone was glad to recieve tt msg lah cos of the damn nice weather to slp! WOO HOO! den tt freak wayne start psychoing me to like cancel n stay at home for beauty slp.. wahahaha.. everyone was late except me, i shld hav knw n try be late as well lah... ahahha.. met wk at changi village to eat nasi lemak cos he took wrong bus before heading to ubin, rented the bikes den chiong cycling ard the island. went to chek jawa but isn open yet, its tmr, so chased out by the NE officers, on the way out, gt a gal fall down the slope, they were having the national jc outdoor adventure club race, she had cuts everywhere.. den helped her n stuff, she not bad sia, but poor gal, shes crying, den after tt headed off to look for the quarry where scandals always take place, and of cos finally found tt place la. ahahaha... all of us wore FO camp t cos it was green, damn ugly though, but wk was the odd one out, he forgot all bout it, ahahaha... after ubin, we were so damn muddy lah.. went home while some of them went to hav dinner,
nasir goin into army in 3 days soon, tts really fast man, will miss cycling n crapping wif ya! =] take care n see ya in 2 weeks! ahahhaha
sian, dun really feel like blogging but nvm, juz chiong bah...
theres some bloody fuckers out there, im juz fucking pissed tt few are juz ard me, fuck them man, did ugly stuff but hid their ugly side tt well n made ppl tink they are juz innocent. someting real bad happened, not to me but someone else, it was worst, it reminded me of an incident, a fucked up incident, din happen to me but indirectly to me, i feel dumb, i feel like a fool, theres juz a thin line btwn forgiving n foolish, wat m i? such tings happens in movie, but nv tot it wld happen to me, n even worst, din expect tt i wld juz accept tt and juz lived wif it til then. sometimes, tt incident wld juz suddenly pop up on my head, i feel damn lousy n fucked up. y did tis happen to me? damn.... i've learnt to be smart, n learning tt being a gd n forgiving guy, sometimes, u will juz be the one getting hurt. fuckkk.. most tings takes 2 hands to clap, dun claim yourself to be totally innocent, cos alot of stuff wldn take place if 1 hand is unwilling to clap. fuck! im so fuckin dumb! tis ting v little knw bout it, damn little, i cld hav been an asshole n spreaad tis ting but i cldn do it, cos it won help, but i doubt others would do the same, nt saying im great, im juz dumb n loser... at tt time, but def nt nw...
fri was a day i learnt, truth always sux, hard to bare, everyone hav their ugly side, juz depends how skillful r u to hide them, be a gd actor, u win... one day, retribution will cum, juz wait...
finding a gf is easy in poly, finding the rite one is hard, lucky ones take months, unlucky ones take years, opposites attract, dun be surprised if u get attracted to someone u least expected. cos opposite always attract, i wonder y... im nt despo, mind u, juz tink tis is a v true statement, im sure many wld hav agreed...
in life, i took many turns tt i hav regretted, but too late le... juz hope i won repeat the same mistakes nx time... lesson learnt...
live earth is cool!!! but v little ppl wore green, singaporeans are so unsupportive n sporting, boring indeed.. nvm...
10:59 AM;
wooo, updating again, fast yea? ahahhaha... thurs went to watch transformers wif sherman julian meifang huiyee n huiyun at lido, omgg, its really damn damn damn damn damn nice lah.... it's a muz watch movie of the year man, much betta than spiderman3 and fantastic4, no joke man, though intro slightly draggy but DAMN! its really damn nice to watch... no regrets for tt 8 bucks, after tt anyhow walk ard town before heading home.
fri was rather boring at the start of the day wif the damn freakin hot weather to add on to the rather boring day... had to clean 2 tank instead of one, all thanks to tt v v v v v nice MR COOKIE whom decided to be funny and started bullying cream, nw cream has some kind becum a paranoid and nds special attention from me... but the main point is 2 tanks mean i nd to get an extra water bottle and extra cleaning wrk to do. ya. y cant they juz get along? maybe shld make them attend EIC class man.. lol... den went for gems den fyp. went to run 2.4 wif alvin n ww, damn, its quite exhausting after not running since the last poly50, but managed to get a D, so still slightly acceptable lah.. ahhaha.. but glad my pull ups improved! yea! actually wanted to go queensway to get the jersey done but i took damn long to realise i forgot my wallet so had to go back club to take, den they suggested it was late so juz go straight for the FnH chalet at changi. drank 4 cups of chivas on rocks and some other wine and stuff, i was like a quarter drunk lah, den went to play blind mice, needed alot of mental power to really concentrate. den went to walk at old changi hospital, still half drunk, took quite some effort to walk properly, being half drunk i still had to take care of tt dumb jiawen! oops :X, chat along the way, den as we walked, kept looking into all the rooms, wld be damn creepy if the group wasnt tt huge, but sad to say, its quite badly vandelised on the walls and stuff. but it was a gd walk lah, managed to talk alot of tings out. went back to the chalet and contiuned our blind mice game but wif alot more participants. thereafter, everyone was so dead tired so lying down n all dozed off til nx morning. hahahah, tinking back, i cld hardly remember wat i talk last nite or details of tings ive done, hmmm, drunkkkk....
booked out the chalet and went to eat at bk den went home to slp... yea... wats more can u ask from when u gt such wonderful frens ard u, so glad n i really thank god though im not christians tt i hav my frens ard me... appreciate u guys :]
wat i've done from linkin park is soundtrack of transformers, but watching the mv itself, not relating to any part of transformers, i find it damn meaningful. theres one part where it showed how gals wanted to cut down on their diet to remain slim while on the other hand, ppl in africa were so skinny tt ribones cld be seen tt clearly.yea... nice song anyway :]
10:23 AM;