no es amor ___

Thursday, August 24, 2006

exams r finally over!! isn it great?? ahahah, nt really actually, dun feel the sense of achievements or satisfaction at all.. no idea y either... dun really hav anything to look forward at all though i seem to hav my schedule properly planned... haiz.. sianz... y is it like tt nia... zzz

juz came back from class ahlet today... quite fun but freakin tiring cos yesterday juz had our last paper which is bio den straight away chalet.. so freakin tiring lahh... played water comb nia, its really super fun... den after tt celebrated adeline's bday n eugene cos tis is his last sem wif us.. so sad nia... ahahah... den after slack like crazy, some slept some talk crap n some play cards, i juz roamed ard, im nt anti social okay.. juz no mood to play games n stuff lah, juz wan to sit down chill n talk my heart out wif a gd fren or ..... cos kind of having a heavy heart though i juz put up a smile on my face... but the chalet is indeed fun lah... went back tis morning cos really freakin tired lah... mentally especially... so srry guys for being nt so on nia...

hmm, juz found out someting, a barrier of mine, dunno y its tis way either... i was kind of sure of wat i really wan but was juz afraid n juz freakin cldn take the nx step n well, guess the cost of such action is huge... guess everything is too late n over for me, so who is to be blamed? ahahha, its juz me.. haiz... my heart has indeed been heavy for quite some time, tings always juz happen at the wrong time... haiz... hope there would still be some chance from 'weather' even though is a hope tt i dun carry too high or maybe nt at all... haiz...

nd time to find myself once again...

alex rus@
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